Lagu Rap

Bila godek-godek laptop lama tiba-tiba terjumpa pulak lirik nih.
Tapi aku main bantai je tulis ikut sedap jari jemari. Takda verse verse, chorus apajadah suma tu.

Lirik ni aku tulis masa aku Form 2 (2005) iaitu ketika umur aku masih belasan tahun lagi (nak gebang sekarang dah 20 tahun lah tuuu). Tak percaya tanyalah Puan Sri Affifah Hanie Azlan. Dialah saksi segala saksi bagi penghasilan masterpiece ini.

Cehh 'masterpiece' tak agak-agak.

AMARAN : Lirik ini mempunyai sindiran dan caci-maki yang amat tinggi.

Orang kata cinta itu buta
Tak terkata
Terbelit lidah utk berbicara
Ku tak percaya
Entahlah aku pun tak tahu
Merapu-rapu terkedu kedu
Terus membisu
Bagai ada sembilu
Betapa bodohnya
Bila mengikut nafsu durjana
Lupa sahabat lupa keluarga
Nampak boyfriend terus segar
Dialah the best
Hari-hari sms
Sehari tak jumpa rasa mcm nak mampos
Seminit tak bergayut rasa nak bunuh diri terus
Bil telefon meletup
Mak bapak terduduk, tak sanggup
Mulutpun terkatup
Tak tahu nak buat apa
Nak jaga si anak dara
Hari-hari beli top up
Kononnya credit expired tanpa sebab
Mak bapak tersepit
Anak dating mat rempit
Hari-hari balik lewat malam
Baju dah mcm baju dalam
Lebih baik terlanjang
Kena terajang, dileter panjang
Remaja kita abad ni tidak tahu malu lagi
Kononnya cinta suci
Tubuh badan diberi
Jantan penuh nafsu mula tak sedar diri
Menjamah tubuh
Tak pernah jenuh
Akibatnya tak pula ditanggung
Sudah mengandung
Inikah cinta?
Cinta yang buta?
Atau nafsu yg bertanduk semata-mata?
Jangan jadi bodoh
Masa depanmu terbunuh!

Itulah nafsu cinta buta
Melenyapkan dusta
Membutakan mata
Bukalah matamu
Jangan biarkan ia tertutup
Aku tahu kau tak bisa
melihat dirimu..
Jangan kau terpedaya
dengan cinta yang tuli dan buta
Penuh dusta

Kau yang tiada mata
Otakmu dilutut, imanmu tersangkut
Mulut mula mencarut
Bercium mulut
Teraba tergaruk hingga kemaruk
Pantang duduk mula peluk-peluk
JAIM datang mula cari tempat nak sorok
Menyorok tapi seronok
Apa nak jadi dengan dunia ini?
Dahsyat tak terperi hilanglah seri..

Ke hulu ke hilir, belayar, berakit
Bawa telefon bimbit
Terkepit-kepit
Telefon berkamera nak show off la konon
Macam-macam dimuat turun
Cerita blue ka?
Tak pakai baju ka?
Semuanya ada, lengkap semua
Mulalah merakam adegan
Diri dan boyfriend bercumbuan
Bersekedudukan
Buat benda tak senonoh
Tinggalkan apa yang tuhan suruh
Kenapa begini?
Ini bukan cinta suci lagi
Ini nafsu cinta buta
Tak bermata
Tak berilmu di dada
Tuhan akan murka
Pintu masih terbuka untukmu bertaubat
Sebelum terlambat
Jangan tersesat
Lupakan nafsu cinta durjanamu itu
Lupakan musuh seteru
Tumpu pada Yang Satu
Sujud pada tuhanmu
Moga diberi petunjuk

Jika itu yang kau mahu, Tuhan Maha Tahu
Berdoalah sebelum kau kaku
Pulanglah ke pangkal jalan
Kamu masih disayang Tuhan
Tatkala nafas masih berhembus
Sebelum kau dikambus
Masih ada jalan yang lurus
Tidak pernah tandus
Ingatlah Tuhan itu Maha Pengampun
Tak kira dosa apapun
Asal kau ikhlas da jujur
Menyesali apa yang kau terlanjur
Taubat nasuha itu jalannya
Jangan ditangguh
Lakukannya sebelum kau menutup mata

Buat selamanya....

Aku

Fikiranku runsing.
Aku tidak tahu mengapa aku tidak dapat lari dari fikiran dan perasaan kacau bilau ini. Mungkin juga perasaan bersalah telah menyentap nadiku buat seketika. Dan kini aku bernafas kembali dalam kegelisahan dan kerunsingan.
Mengapa kini baru aku mampu membuka mataku dan menilai mana kaca mana permata, mana palsu mana kebenaran. Aku bagaikan tenggelam dalam fantasi dan ilusi gelora jiwa darah muda. Selama ini aku tidak pernah sedar aku telah dihanyutkan oleh perasaan yang tiada bersempadan. Aku terlalu mementingkan diri sendiri dan hanya memikirkan keseronokan. Bila aku renungkan seketika, bila iris ini menerawang segenap sudut, aku sememangnya semakin tergelincir dari landasan. Namun, akan aku gagahi setiap langkahku ini untuk berdiri di landasan yang sempurna.Sememangnya, setiap manusia tidak pernah lari dari melakukan kesilapan. Lebih-lebih lagi kesilapan atas kejahilan dan kenaifan diri sendiri.

Begitu juga aku.

Aku hanya ingin berubah.
Bukan berubah menjadi orang lain tetapi..
Berubah menjadi yang lebih baik.

Scattered piece of words...

It's pretty disappointing when someone u like, likes someone else.
Yeah maybe it's my fault for not letting him know how I feel.
But if I ever tell him, it will be the same dont you think so?
He'll reject me cos he likes someone else.
Yeah, I'm afraid to be rejected.
Call me whatever you want, I hate being rejected.
So the best thing to do is, to keep these feelings to myself and be a loser.
I always think that,"you'll never lose things you've never had."
Ok maybe it's insane to think like that.
But what else can i do?


Idk why suddenly I feel like writing these craps.

*Big sighs*

Satu Angan-Angan

Cstaz is a Malaysian rock band from Ayer Keroh, Melaka, Malaysia formed in 2002. The band was unofficially formed in early 2002 when the members started playing music together. The original members were Scha, Phoefs, Ene and Jane. Hanny from the band Pinkiest Pink joined Cstaz in early 2002 but then resigned when Cstaz decided to record an album as she wanted to give her band more priority. In March 2003, Cstaz, with a new member, Rienn, signed a five-year contract under the most prestigious recording company in Malaysia, Vermilion Music Records. Their debut album, The School, recorded when the band members were just 12 years old and still in primary school.

The School, fully written by the members, was sold over 23 million copies around the world. Cstaz has become the most successful Malaysian artistes. Their first single, The Head Prefect topped the the chart around the world as soon as it was released. It was sold over 4 million copies around the world. Cstaz was the music phenomenon even though they were still new. Their first ever mini concert in the US was a blast after 20 000 tickets were sold out in just a week. Famous and influenced celebrities such as Pink, Christina Aguilera and Hilary Duff also attended the mini concert. Cstaz also received 6 nominations in the Grammy Awards and won 2 of it. After The Head Prefect, the band then released other rocking singles from their album such as Throw The School Out, I'm Gonna Slap Mr Ake, I'll Never Understand and The Love Song. As for their first album, they have received a lot of awards and nominations.

In 2005, Cstaz created another blast to the music scene after launching the second album, 7 Hours.The album was edgier and darker than The School. It was sold around 25 million copies around the world and has received a lot of compliments as their latest album was more mature and fresh.The singles released from the second album was, 7 Hours, There'll Be No Boys(In This World), Today (featuring Joel Madden and Synyster Gates), Beezy and This Heart. After releasing all the smashing singles, Cstaz decided to do a world tour. In 2006, they started touring 17 countries with their rocking, live performance. The countries were, Canada, USA, Mexico,South Africa,England, Germany, Italy, France, Russia, Japan, South Korea,Hong Kong, Singapore, Indonesia, Malaysia, Australia,and New Zealand. Their world live tour was successful after over 2.5 million tickets were sold out. The tour also has won a recognition as the best live performance by a rock band in an award ceremony in Malaysia.

As their popularity increased, Cstaz also has become victims of commercials as a lot of corporate companies competed to make Cstaz as their spokesmodels. Cstaz has agreed to do commercials for Pepsi, Nike, DKNY, Covergirl, BMW and Samsung. Besides that, Cstaz also has been labeled as the fashion icons for teenagers. Two of the members, Scha and Phoefs were invited to do a fashion runway for BCBG Max during fall 2006. Cstaz also has launched their first clothing line, Heartless Magnet in December 2006.

In 2007, Cstaz released their third album, The Soul of Riot. This album was produced without one of the members, Jane, who took a break as she had personal matters to handle. The album was also successful as the two albums before and it is sold over 3 million copies around the world in the first week. However Cstaz has caused a controversy as they only released 2 singles out of the album, The Soul of Riot and Tragic. All of the fans were extremely disappointed because they knew how good the songs in the album were and it was such a waste not to release them as singles. The rumours split that the members of Cstaz faced a lot of internal problems that made them hard to cooperate among each other. There were also tabloids that saying Cstaz were going to split.

However, the lead vocalist, Scha, denied it and said that they would never split up. Finally, the controversy settled down when the members of Cstaz made an apology as they really have to take a rest from the music scene. They had to concentrate on their studies and make preparations in order to face the Malaysian Education Certificate( Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia) examinations in 2008. The decision that Cstaz has made has disappointed their fans. However, they still showed their supports and prayed for Cstaz success. Starting February 2008, Cstaz had to reject all shows requests from all over the world and they really did take a break from the music scene.And now, in 2009 Cstaz has promised to come back. Instead of releasing singles from their previous albums, the fans are surprised to know that Cstaz is actually back with a new album which is going to be launched in January 2010. And the biggest surprised is the members left are only, Scha, Phoefs and Ene.

Dear freaks, I am still me.

I am a proud Malaysian and a pure Malay. Yeah maybe I do have chinese/japanese blood running through my veins and that is why I have those small, “sepet”, mono eyelid eyes. Okay whatever, let's not talk about that. Well usually, I speak malay at home and school everyday and undoubtedly I am very,very fluent in that language. When I communicate with my non-malay friends, I will use english as my first language nonetheless because they are more fluent in english(even though sometimes I just speak to them in malay because I'm lazy to construct sentences in english-i'm not very fluent in speaking english btw). Event hough i speak malay everyday, I enjoy writing in english especially when I'm writing poems, blogs and stuffs like that. And I dont think this will ever spoil the purity of malay in me. I can write extremely good pieces of writing in malay too anyway. And I think writing in english will never destroy your race dignity or turn you into English or American or Canadian or whatever. I am a malay and when I write in english I am still me, a malay. Writing in english doesnt mean I hate my own language. I speak the language(malay) everyday and now tell me why the fuck should i hate it? I've grown with it and I'm proud that I can speak malay . Unfortunately, I dont really understand why there are certain unidentified species;stupid, uncivilized motherfuckers who keep saying, “kalau dah melayu tu, cakap melayu jelah. Tak payah la nak berlagak tulis blog dalam english. Berangan nak jadi mat saleh”. Excuse me, motherfuckers, the reason why I write in english is absolutely not because I want to show off or because I hate to be a malay. I must admit that you can find a lot of grammatical errors in my writings so there's no point of showing off here. I've been learning english since I was in kindergarten and there's no point of learning when its wrong to practice. I'm sure you've heard the phrase “practice makes perfect”(well, you gotta put aside those practice-makes-perfect-but-nobody-is-perfect-so-why-practice stuffs here).If you think that people who write in english are trying to show off and you dont wanna be one of them, then you, pussy ass, dont learn english- AT ALL! I suggest you to write an objection letter to the government so as there are no english papers in any Malaysian public examinations and english should be banned in school and everywhere in this country. And please include in your letter about how you suffer to write in english, how your eardrums explode like hand grenades when you listen to every english conversation on TV and how you despise people who speaks english around you(even if it's your fucking mama who speaks it). Well I doubt you can do that,motherfuckers. Cos the government will surely feel annoyed and thinks you're such retards who are desperately trying to steal other people's attention. I don't know what else I can call you, stupid ass, but you are definitely the biggest freaks (pronounce it fuhhh-reeeks) ever! If you cant speak/write in english properly, then just shut your fucking mouth up. Do not call everyone else snobbish and do not ruin other people's reputations. Please change your stupid fucking perception towards people who practice english in their daily conversation or at least in their writings. We all have our own rights to speak/write in any language we want so dont be such a retard to criticize every single thing everyone else is doing. If you wanna write your blogs in malay, go on! Everyone is happy and no one will bother you because malay is our national language. I can write in malay too(well i do write some of my blogs in malay) and I bet I'm better at it than you are, stupid fag!. But just because you can't write in english well, you have to despise those people who can and telling them that they are losing their dignity and malay purity.