Monday, April 21, 2014
Monday, April 7, 2014
I Need My Passion Back
I miss those times where I did my work because I was soooo into it.
Put all my efforts and commitment to it and never felt like it was a burden.
I miss those moments where I enjoyed doing every single task given to me.
Even when my teammates didn't give a fuck about doing it, I did not care much.
I just kept doing my best and get things done because I wanted the result to be perfect. Even before I started doing it, I have already imagined what the outcome that it was going to be.
But now, everything seems so different.
I got things done just because it needs to be done.
Not because I really wanna see the outcome.
I got my job done because there's a deadline.
There is nothing more that I expect.
Choreographed and lack of passion.
Somebody told me, I just need to love what I'm doing now, no matter how much I hate it.
Tapi, cinta tak boleh dipaksa tau.
In this situation I am in now, I can't seem to love what I do.
I just wanna start doing what I love.
I want to bring back my passion.
Put all my efforts and commitment to it and never felt like it was a burden.
I miss those moments where I enjoyed doing every single task given to me.
Even when my teammates didn't give a fuck about doing it, I did not care much.
I just kept doing my best and get things done because I wanted the result to be perfect. Even before I started doing it, I have already imagined what the outcome that it was going to be.
But now, everything seems so different.
I got things done just because it needs to be done.
Not because I really wanna see the outcome.
I got my job done because there's a deadline.
There is nothing more that I expect.
Choreographed and lack of passion.
Somebody told me, I just need to love what I'm doing now, no matter how much I hate it.
Tapi, cinta tak boleh dipaksa tau.
In this situation I am in now, I can't seem to love what I do.
I just wanna start doing what I love.
I want to bring back my passion.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
About Me?
Lol punyalah tua blog ni, baru nak buat about me kewwwww?? uhuhuk
My name is
Farihin, which means “Joy” in Arabic. No I don’t have any Nur, Nor, Nurul or
Siti in front (Can you imagine, Siti Farihin? T_T). It’s just Farihin. Even though my name is short and simple, most
of my relatives and friends still prefer to call me by a shorter name, “Inn”.
On the internet, I’m widely (widely lah sangatttt) known with the name Farihin
Haushinka.
I was born on
4th of March 1991. I’m really bad at Maths because I thought I’m 17
this year but when I tried to subtract 1991 from 2014 using my calculator, the
answer is 23. Ok jk.
I was raised
by my grandparents because my parents divorced when I was 2. I’m an only child.
But usually when I introduce myself in class, I’ll be like “I’m an only child
but I have brothers and sisters”. It may sound complicated, but by that, I mean
my half siblings.
I must say
that living with my grandparents is quite challenging due to the big age gap.
What I want to know is different from what they know. So, this situation has
turned me into a very independent person. I’m a very curious person. I want to
know as much as I can. So, everytime I want to know about something, I had to
dig the answers from my books (cos Google wasn’t even an embryo at that time).
I’m lucky to have my grandparents who always support me and always buy me books
to feed my hunger for knowledge. Because they know, they can’t answer
everything.
Even during
my kindergarten years, my teacher at that time asked me to quit. Well
literally, she talked to my grandmother that it’s better for me to quit. She said
she couldn’t handle my questions and she thought that it’s better for me to
learn by myself at home. (LOL!) She told my grandmother, I always said “Cikgu,
tak boleh belajar benda lain ke? Asyik belajar benda yang sama je. Bosanlah.”
How demanding I was. -.-
My primary
school years bloomed. One of the best memories was entering National Arithmetic Mental Abacos Competition in PWTC. I was named as the 7th best in
Malaysia for Level 1. As far as I could remember, I managed to answer almost 60
Maths questions correctly in 5 minutes. But the questions at that time level
budak sekolah punya difficulty lah cos I was only 8 years old. Not like
Econometrics where we have to include economic theories. -.-
I was a
popular student in my school because of my good academic and non academic
performance. Not because I was the hottest girl in the school of course. T_T In
fact, I’m far out from being hot. When I was in Standard 4 and 5, my weight
even reached 80kg++. I know, horrifying. I’ve got a lot of nicknames like Godzilla,
Gorilla, Fatty Bum bum, you name it.
I’ve got to
thank my grandparents again for sending me to swimming classes. It reaaallly
did help me in losing some weight. When I was 12, my weight was 60kg++. Amazing
huh?
Moving on to
my secondary school years, I started my freshman year (nak American sangat) in
one of the most reputable Science Schools in Malaysia. Believe it or not, I did
not like it. At all. So I only stayed that for only....urrmm one month and a
half? Yeah I quit. Then I continued my secondary years in SMK Ayer Keroh or
widely known as AKSES. Those years in AKSES were a blast! I joined almost
everything, debate, stage plays, karate do, badminton, shot put, clubs and
societies you name it.
But then, because of some internal problems, I moved to
a new school in 2006. A school that is far out from being as cool as AKSES, far
from being elite as AKSES. The buildings looked like the ones in horror movies.
SMK Munshi Abdullah. Herkherkkk.
Ok stop kat sini, continue later. So lazy to write more. HEWHEW.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
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